Oh No! My *STUFF* Is Rising to the Top!
This is one of my most favoritist quotes of all time!!!!!
Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
So these last few days I have been on a high. I am so excited at the possibility of living a fulfilled life that defies limitation. I have been feeling what I think truly successful people feel that drives them to follow their dreams.
In January, 2006 I began a class at my local Unity Church called Keys to the Kingdom. It is an advanced abundance and prosperity course that calls for participants to take definite steps in more fully experiencing the abundance that exists within them... the same abundance that exists in all of us.
It was in this class that I learned something very interesting. And that is that when we affirm new attitudes and seek new behaviors, anything within us that is not in alignment with these new ways of being will rise to the top.
They rise to the top to be healed, released and/or transformed. It is this *stuff* that allows us to remain in places of lack, limitation and fear.
And it is this *stuff* that has begun to rise to the top in a mighty way within me. So I am beginning to hear the voices that made me decide that living in mediocrity was the best path to take for so many years prior.
"Why do you think that you should teach an African dance class? We thought you were old when you were seriously dancing at 28 but 37? Girl are you crazy!?! Do you think people will actually continue to come? I say quit and save yourself the embarrassment. At least you won't fail if you quit."
OUCH! This is painful. And in the past quitting seemed the only way to ease the pain.
"Look Tirra/Tyra/Olufemi...whatever your name is! You have NEVER succeeded at any of your business ventures. You ain't outta debt yet! In the past you have been...well, lazy. Now why should we believe that you are to be this entrepreneur that you are saying you are?"
All I can say is that mediocrity is boring and it is painful...in a slow, low level kind of way. I can see how so many choose to play it safe because hearing these voices can make a person just want to crawl in a corner never to come out. These voices can be deafening. This has been my own personal experience.
But I press on. Mediocrity is killing me more than taking a chance on actually living to my highest potential. The above quote from Marianne Williamson has been ringing in my ears here lately.
I remember 11 years ago telling my dear sweet mother, Lillie, that I had decided to pursue a statistics minor for my graduate degree. There was something in me that urged me to do so. I told my mother, "I feel like I always play it safe. I feel like I always do what I KNOW I will succeed at and I feel like I need to take a risk here so that I know that I can do other things that I never dreamed that I would do."
Getting that stat minor turned out to be one of the best decisions I ever made. Doing so helped me to stretch beyond my self-imposed limitations. Getting that minor assisted me in understanding the beauty of the spiritual quality called EXPANSION.
Again, I am seeing how all that is happening is Osun's way of helping me to move beyond limitations. I seek to embrace the Light within me rather than fear it. Who am I to be an entreprenuer, priestess and wildly successful beyond my wildest dreams? Who am I NOT to be all of this?
I have not come into the remembrance of the Sacred Feminine Mysteries, the knowledge of the Great Mother, the Divine Feminine by all the names we call her...I have not decided to remember only to continue living in fear...fear of failure.
*YOU* have not come here to live a life of mediocrity either. Take a chance! Expand! Succeed! Give others permission to do the same!
ASHE!(And so it is!)
Energy Surrounding this blog entry: Herukhuti Hetep